Got avid reader complaining I’m not updating my blog. So here I am.

Had a fun 3d2n cruise over the last weekend. The bad things were, no sunrise/sunset and no stars. These are the things that I was looking most forward to other than the massive amount of buffet. (LOL) Many other factors that made the cruise trip fun, or not fun. Subjected to the person’s views of whom were there. *wink wink*

The person whom brought the camera onboard happens to be the avid reader stated in the first sentence of this entry have not pass me any photos. So this entry about the cruise is a NPNT (No Picture No Talk) entry. LOL

Will be back with photos once I got hold of them.

I’ve always been using this line, “talk is cheap.” The reason being, most of the people (including me) usually have lots of theories to explain how to go about execute something. But after all the words said and reasoning done, things are seldom being done as the way being said, or worse, not doing it at all. This is also known as NATO (No Action Talk Only)

However, my main point today isn’t about “talk is cheap”. On the contrary, I feel there is a need for talking in this case.

Some things just cannot be brought across clearly by IM/mobile text/blog entries. All these medium are just way to dump your thoughts without the ability to bring the message across. Dumping wall of text deals 999 damage to the other party and will not be absorbed effectively.Yes, message seen; no, cannot understand.

I really feel through verbal conversation, messages can be brought across more clearly. You can put your feelings into spoken words unlike in IM where you can only use emoticons/caps lock/exclamation mark to represent different feelings. It is more sincere in a way to do it verbally, like in cases of making an apology. How sincere a person can be if the apology is made through mobile text?

Hope this entry make some sense. I suck at words, I think I can explain all these theories verbally better. LOL :P

Wise words from the usual readings off the Internet. Especially the last line:

明明很在意
為什麼還要違背自己的心？

明明很在意
為什麼還要逃避？

明明很在意
為什麼還要這樣封閉自己？

劇本是人寫的
結局是人演的
為什麼才插入個情節
就亂得摸不著頭緒？

人生哪來這麼多ＮＧ讓你再重來一次？
(In life, where do you get so many NGs to start over again?)

My Final Year Project presentation just ended 2 hours ago. There were some blunders made during the presentation but I guess me and my groupmates put in the best effort to keep it at minimal. Now it’s all over! 4 months of hard work not put to waste. Hope the assessor and the third marker sees the effort we put into this project and give us a grade that we deserved! Our supervisor told us he proposed 80 marks to the marking panel, which means it’s a distinction! But it is still subjected to the panel’s moderation. *prays*

Will be a graduate by September or October with the certificate of completion but have to wait till next year February for the official transcript and testamur. No more school for me for at least the next few years. Haven’t cross my mind for a Masters degree, but not pushing away the possibility of getting it, just not so soon.

Finally have more freedom after work now. Happy happy! :D

Anyway, happy 24th birthday to Teo!

I guess I didn’t brought my points across well during the trashing out. Wasn’t at my best composure to do so too. So for now, waiting for the moment you pop by my blog, and read below. It is all up to your discretion to read it or not. I just need to say my piece. And all I going to say is entirely to my own opinions and views, you have your rights not to agree to it.

Alright. About the magic word, click. I strongly believe, it is not that you and me don’t click. It is more like you are pushing it away, choosing to avoid it. If you and me really don’t click, there won’t be so much madness and nonsense going on from way back to let both parties to cross some lines that should not be cross. So in conclusion, you are trying to maintain self-control by cutting off the click and deny its presence. You are not wrong to do so, so don’t jump to conclusion that I’m implying you are at fault.

Part 2, about being how affected I am by all these. Yes, I am very affected each time you decide to shut the doors in my face. Reason is simple, I cherish every friendship regardless of it being reciprocate or not, I put in effort to maintain the friendship. When things doesn’t go my way, I get frustrated and I will think alot. I will think that did I not put in enough effort to do so? I know you would be saying, things don’t always go my way. Of course I know that, but I just hope it can and it will. It’s just a characteristic of me that is hard to change. Everyone has pet peeves that are hard to change. But haven’t you realise, as long you are less harsh towards me, your life and my life would be much more better? With no one being emo and complaining and stuff. Wasn’t it all ok during the period after Tools Down Day? Once again, you are not wrong to do so, so don’t jump to conclusion that I’m implying you are at fault.

I know it’s my fault for being too sticky most of the time. I really didn’t know just by coming over inviting you for lunch or tea-breaks would cause so much distress on you. I was just doing the usual back then (before the recent conflict), and that day you get all worked up just by me coming over. That got me really puzzled after you told me those things like you needed some space and stuffs.

I would not want to lose a friend just like this. You may not think I’m a good friend, but I certainly think you are one to me. So far the above are what I can phrase out in words. Cause sometimes there are really things words can’t describe or spoken. Actions are louder than words that is what people always say. If more can come out of my thought, I might just post a part 2.

Want to know why Im always negatively in thoughts? I was brought up with a bad childhood in school and home. I don’t know how are they related, but I feel there are slight relations. If you are interested to know, I can share with you.

If you finished reading this, thanks for your time. Hope things can be worked out someday, someway, somehow.