I guess I didn’t brought my points across well during the trashing out. Wasn’t at my best composure to do so too. So for now, waiting for the moment you pop by my blog, and read below. It is all up to your discretion to read it or not. I just need to say my piece. And all I going to say is entirely to my own opinions and views, you have your rights not to agree to it.

Alright. About the magic word, click. I strongly believe, it is not that you and me don’t click. It is more like you are pushing it away, choosing to avoid it. If you and me really don’t click, there won’t be so much madness and nonsense going on from way back to let both parties to cross some lines that should not be cross. So in conclusion, you are trying to maintain self-control by cutting off the click and deny its presence. You are not wrong to do so, so don’t jump to conclusion that I’m implying you are at fault.

Part 2, about being how affected I am by all these. Yes, I am very affected each time you decide to shut the doors in my face. Reason is simple, I cherish every friendship regardless of it being reciprocate or not, I put in effort to maintain the friendship. When things doesn’t go my way, I get frustrated and I will think alot. I will think that did I not put in enough effort to do so? I know you would be saying, things don’t always go my way. Of course I know that, but I just hope it can and it will. It’s just a characteristic of me that is hard to change. Everyone has pet peeves that are hard to change. But haven’t you realise, as long you are less harsh towards me, your life and my life would be much more better? With no one being emo and complaining and stuff. Wasn’t it all ok during the period after Tools Down Day? Once again, you are not wrong to do so, so don’t jump to conclusion that I’m implying you are at fault.

I know it’s my fault for being too sticky most of the time. I really didn’t know just by coming over inviting you for lunch or tea-breaks would cause so much distress on you. I was just doing the usual back then (before the recent conflict), and that day you get all worked up just by me coming over. That got me really puzzled after you told me those things like you needed some space and stuffs.

I would not want to lose a friend just like this. You may not think I’m a good friend, but I certainly think you are one to me. So far the above are what I can phrase out in words. Cause sometimes there are really things words can’t describe or spoken. Actions are louder than words that is what people always say. If more can come out of my thought, I might just post a part 2.

Want to know why Im always negatively in thoughts? I was brought up with a bad childhood in school and home. I don’t know how are they related, but I feel there are slight relations. If you are interested to know, I can share with you.

If you finished reading this, thanks for your time. Hope things can be worked out someday, someway, somehow.